my computer is running like complete shit
im disappointed


so i was in walmart today buying shit you know because thats what walmart is good for and theres this chick with her kid and i assume her boyfriend and they run into someone they know

im in the aisle looking at napkins and the girl with the kid is like "guess how much i make" and her friend says "i dont know" and she says "I MAKE $12 AN HOUR GUESS WHAT I DO" and her friend says "wow what" and she says something about designing furniture or something

$12 a fucking hour and shes ecstatic about it

this is the kind of contentment i wish i had - ahh i would long to be happy with a fat wad of ones in my hand, not driven by animal greed and excess ponceology

i also find myself consumed by near-absolute complacency regarding my former relationship - oddly enough i expected it to take much longer than it has. the journey has been an introspective one and i learned a lot but in reality i dont think i learned as much as i should have

a girl i respect and adore who is intelligent beyond words, focused and driven had a conversation with me today - it went down like this:

girl (5:26:42 PM): you plot too much
girl (5:26:52 PM): manipulate just as much
bryce (5:27:01 PM): youre too smart for that
girl (5:27:04 PM): :-)
bryce (5:27:09 PM): so i dont even bother
girl (5:27:18 PM): sure sure that right there is a manipulation

god how fucking true is that - i run game and rattle shit off in such a natural format that it has become my nature to game by default - completely hinged in my subconsciousness i gamed

so i figure the trick is to find a girl that you game and she games back, but its good spirited. one who can appreciate the subtle moves of gangsterocity rather than be swayed indefinitely by them - because what fun is that - its almost perpetuating the chase in a sense - ziplock bagging the freshness of a relationship

in the meantime, im most likely going to be incredibly juvenile for the most part. the near future holds nothing immediate in my destiny so i might as well make like bad boy bill and bang the box - some willing applicants out of the woodwork but you can never have too many

when in doubt stop the drought

fin